SO, it's been one of those days. eating FIVE brownies in a row kind of days. yeah, that bad. i'm emotionally drained and totally numb with bouts of crying mixed in. sigh. this is the kind of day when i realize...
-my son has turned into the devil.
-the church bathroom is a great place to cry in private.
-that just because i don't go to church every sunday doesn't make me a bad person.
-just because someone does go to church every sunday doesn't make it okay to verbally abuse another. God doesn't care how often you go to church, it's how you treat people in the end that he cares about.
-i'm tired of people saying (or writing) one thing and then doing something totally opposite. mean what you say and say what you mean.
-i'm tired of family looking at me like less then equal. that is why i've distanced myself from you in the first place.
-i'm tired of not trusting people. and i'm tired that people make it so that i can't trust them. it's frustrating to feel utterly alone in this world. seriously. heart-breakingly lonely.
-but i'm eternally grateful to the lovely {ms. abby} for always (and i do mean always) being such a wonderful friend who is never nosy and just makes me laugh. no matter what i'm going through she is always such a bright light. so thank you my friend, you are amazing. (and thank you for letting me hide behind the piano for the remainder of church. it was much needed.)
-i can only hope this week will be better. it can't get much worse than today (i hope anyway.)
the only thing i do have to look forward to, are the pictures we will be getting from {THESE} people. we went yesterday to have them taken and i can't believe that they are making me wait three whole weeks to get them back. that's agony i tell you. pure agony!
