such a solemn day....

SO, this morning after sleeping for an amazingly wonderful 15 hours, i was awakened to two crying girls begging me to wake up and check the hamster because it might be dead. geesh, was all i thought and made my way down to elise's room. there, right there was the saddest looking hamster i've ever seen. at least when i saw my hamster when it died as a child it was already dead, but poor pumpkin was still alive, just barely. she would take a deep breath every once in a while and twitch her leg a little. she wouldn't open her eyes, she was all wet looking and was completely sunken in. all i could do was cry along with my girls. it's so hard to see animals like that. i called around to a couple vets and all told me that if they are at the point of not responding or opening their eyes, there really isn't much they can do. they said she shouldn't be in any pain and all we could do was wait it out for her to die. great, this is going to be traumatic. and not just for my girls. an hour later and three goodbyes she finally died. elise broke down and said that she hadn't fed her in a week because she was thinking she was hoarding her food like she usually does and didn't even check. i don't know if that's what did her in or the fact that elise's room was freezing cold this morning but man oh man our house has been solemn and quiet with a few cries mixed in. something so preventable makes me upset. lessons have been learned. i should have been more diligent in checking the food as well. poor pumpkin. i hope she can forgive me. we'll be giving her a proper funeral tomorrow in between the rains.

R.I.P.
pumpkin
may 2009-october 2009
(with her only being 5 MONTHS old, i think it's best for NO future
animals to be subjected to my family. it's only humane.)