to be sad or not sad, that is my question....

SO, for almost 4 years now i've been working at a gym. an ALL woman's gym. (yuck) it started out as just being a sub for the baby care. then i trained to be a yoga/pilates instructor and when i finally starting interning as an instructor i found out i was pregnant with wesley, which lead me back to working in the baby care followed by a hiatus while dealing with pregnancy drama and having a newborn around. i went back to working there again about 8 months ago doing 4 hours a week. it hasn't been to bad. i could bring the kids with me when i needed and the extra money was spent on going out to dinner every two weeks. well, after every time bringing wesley to the baby care and him getting violently ill, i decided that i needed to quit. having him in that atmosphere was just to hard on his little body. wednesday was my last day and i have to say it made me a little verkelpt. i really didn't think i would miss working there. it being an all women gym, there was ALWAYS some form of petty drama circulating around and the clicks bothered me to no end. but there were the ladies that i enjoyed talking with, who made me laugh and were hard workers. they are the ones i certainly will miss. so, i don't know if i'm sad or not. i'm glad to just be home with my kids and focus my time with their busy lives, and yet my heart aches to see the other children i used to (dreadingly) see and watch for the few hours a week and chat with my co-workers. it's strange how the annoyance of working at the time can bring a sorrow once it's gone.