SO, i have been listening a lot lately to music of my formative years. as badly drawn boy so wisely says "what is music? just the soundtrack to your life." i have to whole-heartily agree. music in my life has been a healer, a comforter, a constant. their are some songs that when heard no matter where i am, take me back to the days of my younger life. some make me smile, some cry but they always produce tender memories.
this is only a fraction of the songs that have created my childhood and young adult years but they were certainly at turning points in my life that put me here today....
take on me- a-ha: this was my very first tape that i got in first grade. this songs just reminds me of how grown up i felt owning my own music.
you outta know- alanis morissette: the summer before my senior year of high school found me driving around in my best friend's car late at night trying to get cool with the windows rolled down singing this song at the top of our lungs over and over and over again. this was my riot girl phase...
inbetween days- cure: whenever i wanted to be happy and giddy all i would have to do is put this song on and jump around my room. then i was ready to face whatever i needed to do. this still applies to me to this day... except i don't jump around anymore. i just sing along at the top of my lungs....
somebody-depeche mode: this song reminds me of every pathetic church dance i ever attended where i prayed and hoped and waited for a boy, any boy really, to ask me to dance. they never did and my stalking of cute boys came into fruition. let's just say, my sad, sad self listened to this song more times then i will ever admit.
pictures of you- cure: one of my favorite songs of all time. i also listened to this song so many times as a teenager. mostly when i was creating some crazy drama in my head over a stalked boy that had no idea who i was. i have mentioned that i was a sad, sad person right? yeah, soooo embarrassing.
any and all tori amos: i fell so deeply in love with her my freshman year of high school. she just completely got everything about me. her music was the calmness i desperately needed in my life. i still use her to this day for that very reason. it seems to calm my children as well.
i'll be missing you- p-diddy: i had this song on repeat on my cd player the day of trinity's funeral. i layed on my back on the floor of my room and didn't move all afternoon and night. just layed there staring at my ceiling crying, singing and crying. my heart breaks every time i hear it but i have to listen to it every time it comes on.
hands- jewel: i love love love this song. it reminds me of when i first met the mister. we would dance to it and you know how that new relationship can be. so intoxicating. it just makes me so happy.
fast car- tracy chapman: this song i only have one specific memory. i was admitted for my first time (i've been admitted 4 times) into a behavioral health center right after getting engaged to the mister for so many reasons i'd rather not delve into. but, being it my first time i was pretty freaked out. we were monitored 24 hours a day, i had a CRAZY roommate and it was the most alone i'd ever felt in my whole life. in one of my many therapy sessions, there was a group of us sitting around really not wanting to heal our poor spirits when this song came on in the back ground. we became very quiet, and little by little we started to sing along quiet at first then louder and louder until we were all singing at the top of our lungs and crying. it was the first time that i felt like what i was going through wasn't new. that so many of us have felt this kind of pain. we began to talk. we began to open ourselves up and learn from one another and heal our worn out selves. it was amazing. i love listening to this song. it reminds me just how far i've come in my life.
dreaming my dreams- cranberries: this was the mister and my first wedding dance. i miss dancing with him. this is my favorite memory :)
there are so many more songs but i can't write them all. i'm so grateful that we have music on this earth. it truly can bring us closer to our Father in Heaven. i'm thankful to Him for giving us this gift in our lives....
